newstuff to do

hello! i think that it is about time that i write a new post, as my last v. sad and depressed post has heavily been sitting on top of the heap for a while now, vulnerable. (when else but a sad time, though, do i ever feel like writing?) right now in my life i personify confusion. do i need medication? or maybe just a change? so today i am going to write down three goals.

one- i will find a therapist to talk to. i want to ask this person to gather all the gray sludge in my head and, whoosh! suck it out (or help me to somehow squeeze it out myself) so that i have a clean, fresh brain to think with. big things lurk inside this head! how can i reasonably expect myself to behave normally with all this stuffing up here, obscuring my thoughts?

two- i will take better care of my fingernails. this sounds crazy, i know, but nice-looking fingernails are something i have never, ever, had. wouldn't it be great to have cute fingers? i think so! good grooming propels self-confidence!

and three, i will pray for everyone i know, all the time. i want to acknowledge, on a daily basis, all of the heartache and the pain and fear that i know people are going through. i will pray for the people i pass on the street and my friends' family members who are sick or worried. i will pray for my chain of supportive friends and their own chains. by doing so, this will help me remember how blessed i am and how enormously small my problems are, in comparison. i think this will help me on my own road.