march

M had his 2-month checkup on tuesday. he's almost 13 pounds (size 2 diapers, here we come!) and is measuring in the 75th percentile for height and weight. he got several immunizations, which he seems to have tolerated pretty well.

i have mixed feelings about it being march. march marks the time when i can legitimately hope for snowmelt and 50+ degree days. this winter has been rough on me because the snow and cold have really cooped us up here in our house while i'm home all day with M. by march, the end is officially near! i can't wait for the wet muddy sloshy bits-of-green drip drip drip of spring! i want to replace all the blood in my body with fresh aired-out spring blood. i want to get out and hike, show M more of the world. i've also begun daydreaming about the vegetable garden i'm going to plant this year in our yard. i think we've settled on a handful of crops (it's my first real garden so i'm starting slow with peppers, tomatoes, sweet potatoes, garlic, and onions) and i've ordered some seed catalogs to flip through. today it's sunny so i'm watching the yard to see where the sunniest spots are.

march also brings the end of my maternity leave; i return to work on march 17 and M will go to daycare. we've chosen a place we believe will nurture him the way we would if we were there and enhance his development. i'm trying not to dread march 17: all i can do is trust that the decision to go back to work and the place we've decided to take M are the best for our family. i could go on and on about how much i will miss being M's primary caregiver during the day, how i will miss rocking away the day with him. but we must move on. both of us must step a little out of the nest and it will be good for us.

so this month is going to be about change, growth, and poking our heads once again out into the world. upon reflection, it's really all good. i think we're both ready to emerge.